Letting it Out ...

Whew! It's been an interesting couple of weeks and while much has changed much has gone back to the same.  One huge win -- managed to get hubby to stick it out with low carb and is loving it---
The loss- after week three I managed to have fallen off the wagon and have been struggling with getting off the runaway train.

Nothing fits and I mean nothing. My fat pants are even snug. Stepped on the scale yesterday and was shocked... and somehow that didnt stop me from having potatoes at every meal yesterday at some one meal three different servings of different potatoes (in one meal) Shameful I know.

About 4 weeks ago watched a documentary on Netflix --"Fat, Sick and Nearly Dead" about a 30 day juice cleanse and it was extremely inspiring. I was motivated to perform the challenge and within twenty four hours I was able to talk myself out of it - not just for the cost of the promoted Brevia juicer, but whether or not I could do it more importantly if it could actually help me -- would I lose - NOT A DOUBT, but could I live on fruit and veggie juice alone for 30 days - Im sure it wouldn't kill me, but could I push to get through it? Since it seems my diet ADD kicks in on or about week three. Even if I did manage to stick it out for 30 days, would I be able to continue and or segue safely back into a reasonable diet.

Ive been keeping up with my Clean Eating blogs - despite following far from a clean diet and I LOVE the idea of CE, but have not been able to make the commit to stick to it and I remember well feeling more satiated.  Now Im watching "Hungry for Change" and this is another awesome documentary educating on the nasties in our current day diet - how much sugar is really the hidden demon (I'm over exaggerating) in all of our current day food as we have moved away from the farm and towards the factory for convenience foods.

The take away from this documentary " We are grossly overfed and miserably undernourished" Our bodies are starving for nutrition. The film is towards the end and is recommending a cleanse / detox using a plant based diet specficially green vegetables containing chlorophyll like parsley, cilantro and gelataneous foods like chia seeds and aloe vera. Im chuckling as I think Cilantro is associated with latin food like pico di gallo, salsa and Parsley is... A GARNISH! Although I did have a homeopathic doctor recommend I drimk parsley tea for what I thought was random swelling (turns out it was my RA). Basically the speakers are explaining how our bodies are begging for repair and if we would only just reward it with a sustainable diet it would give us our best life yet.... Still toying with it and trying to figure how when to start and how to get past the 'taste' and my heavy sugar addiction.

It sounds like within 2 weeks I could be 'healed'. But can I live like that forever? How can I do it with my long commute and long hours at work --

GROSS ALERT -- So in response to my gazillion calories in carbs and fat yesterday, today I have some wicked gas.. and I mean WICKED! In addition I think my body is poorly responding to my diet physically (other than bursting at the seams) but excessive itching of my skin.. almost like an allergic reaction.. and yet I continue with the craziness...

Feeling empowered enough right now to empty my pantry and donate all of my junk / fast / diet foods.... Might be good since I am going away for the weekend and can come home to a 'clean pantry' and kitchen. I have to do something because right now I feel AWFUL and quite franly if what is coming out of me is any indication as to how rotten my insides are --- then I need A GOOD CLEANING PRONTO...

Another point that speakers made was on diet cola - the addiction of aspartame and the deadly combination of aspartame and caffeine that keeps us coming back for me. It seems that the sugar addiction (which I knew after reading Tosca Reno's Clean Eating, Harvey Diamond's Fit for Life and even the late Dr. Atkin's) is not just about regular white refined sugar, but also with 'fake sugar' which for sure I KNOW I am addicted to.

Ok...I needed to document this so I will be reminded that this detox really isnt an option as much as a requirement... I'll check back in to update as to whether or not Ive done it or not and how Im feeling after my eat fest weekend in Rochester... Part of me wants to cancel - and do a 3 day cleanse starting this evening after my upper GI procedure....but I need to learn to keep my word and honor my commitment. it is often recommended to cleanse when you will be home or close to home so not sure when I can do this again.. and i have a few upcoming eat dates ... actually now I need to post on that -- how to address that w/o looking like a flake... or another crazy FAD diet...

back on that need to continue my productivity spree- dishes / kitchen cleaning to get some things off my TDL (to do list).

Will check back in shortly...