Nutritionist progressed me to phase 3 - two shakes and one meal ... Solid food and raw veggies.
I feel good. Some days better than others but not how I meant that back in the day. Every day I feel good some days I feel super.
The other day shared with my FB private group that I think I'm falling in love with myself. I have spent the last few years disappointed with my appearance and diet ADD. And now, I'm well on my way to thinking Summa is an awesome gal. Not just because of what she looks like... But how she feels; what she presents to others and her new found confidence.
I no longer take the empty aisle to my desk or the back staircase. I'm walking down the active aisle and making rounds to greet my dormer colleagues. There's a little extra swagger in my hips and flirt in my smile. All innocent of course.
On a serious note .... The other day I was sharing how exciting it is to shop in my own closet, but bigger than that I smile everyday and it feels natural. I can see the sadness leaving my eyes and see the sparkle that I once knew but became a very distant memory.
I'm almost past the need for other people to comment on my weight loss because I know they can feel the difference in my vibe and I am very much in tune with where I'm coming from. I can still be a royal cranky pants but I'm more of a smiler these days. Few people saw me at my biggest -- I was in serious hiding but now I don't regret my food funeral at all. I remember how good the food tasted but also remember the guilt and disgust I suffered shortly after. I don't miss that. Secretly I think that's what made the first twenty pounds come off so quickly - it was the quick twenty I gained between thanksgiving and surgery(may 1st)
Today, date wise its a non- event however the NSVs are plenty - I'm wearing a dress I last wore at my lowest reported weight in over ten years ( that was two years ago..23 months ago if we were counting) and today I am one pound away from that milestone and elated.
The dress fits ... Room for improvement but one month ago zipping it wasn't an option let alone open for discussion. I can FiNALLY see the difference in my face and my love handles. Can feel them too...less of them that is!
So big reveal so far 1 month and 17 days post op ... I am down 37 pounds. Don't think ever been close to a 40 pound loss before and I am elated. Looking forward to One-derland very soon - Eek! My short goal was to be under two hundred by my 35th birthday in August ...looks like I'm ahead of schedule God's willing. But not there yet so will hold off on counting my eggs!
Haven't taken any inches but ill give you a visual circa ten pounds ago... Will have to update side by sides at the 40 pound loss check point.
Queue up sappy -1990s sitcom closing music - envision Full House, Family Matters, Growing Pains, etc.
If you are on this journey, stay focused and take it one day at a time ... If you are toying with it I suggest doing your research and evaluating your options and commitment level (lapband vs gastric sleeve vs gastric bypass). Either way KNOW you are not alone in your thoughts and or efforts. Contact me I'd you like to chat offline and also be courageous to join forums and ask questions if your curious... Only stupid question are those that go in-asked.
If you have a loved one on this track support them, love them and empower them to perform the aforementioned. Leave judgment at the door. You may not be able to understand their pain, struggle or limitations - but there are countless.
Thanks for listening ... Til next time ...
-Chubbette
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