Sooo, turned 40 about 6 weeks ago and it's been bittersweet - cool because I can use new and fun terms to describe myself, like "a woman of a certain age" or "grown".
It's also been a good excuse to do random things like have a 40th birthday smash cake photo shoot -ya that happened.... Of course there's an editorial that comes along with that as well, but for now I'd like to pave the way for future posts by sharing ramblings, because that's what a thoughtful blogger in training does, right? Another random stunt - book a cruise to Cuba with my bestie from college - that was super cool and fresh in my mind! Returned from the trip today and partially the impetus for the post.
Then there's this notion of purpose, passion, fulfillment and dreams - defining and stepping into them. I'm worried that I cannot define my "Why" for just about anything - it's scary. Like really scary - like I spend money and do cool things, but none of it has any real impact on me. All possible indicators that I may be falling back in to depression.
That went left pretty fast. So let me circle back to the quote
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=epPOw33rMgc
"If you cannot be the person you want to be right now, in this second right now; if you cannot make a decision right now, in this moment you don't have a WHY that is strong enough. And if you don't have a why that is strong enough right now, you won't have a WHY that is strong enough on Monday!"
That resonates with me because my plans are always hinged on starting Monday - whether it's getting organized, starting a new eating plan, getting more sleep - it never starts now - it's typically a Monday or 1st of the month start date, but Rachel is right, if you can't jump into it right now -chances are you aren't there... yet! Million dollar question - How do you get there?
It's also been a good excuse to do random things like have a 40th birthday smash cake photo shoot -ya that happened.... Of course there's an editorial that comes along with that as well, but for now I'd like to pave the way for future posts by sharing ramblings, because that's what a thoughtful blogger in training does, right? Another random stunt - book a cruise to Cuba with my bestie from college - that was super cool and fresh in my mind! Returned from the trip today and partially the impetus for the post.
Then there's this notion of purpose, passion, fulfillment and dreams - defining and stepping into them. I'm worried that I cannot define my "Why" for just about anything - it's scary. Like really scary - like I spend money and do cool things, but none of it has any real impact on me. All possible indicators that I may be falling back in to depression.
That went left pretty fast. So let me circle back to the quote
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=epPOw33rMgc
"If you cannot be the person you want to be right now, in this second right now; if you cannot make a decision right now, in this moment you don't have a WHY that is strong enough. And if you don't have a why that is strong enough right now, you won't have a WHY that is strong enough on Monday!"
That resonates with me because my plans are always hinged on starting Monday - whether it's getting organized, starting a new eating plan, getting more sleep - it never starts now - it's typically a Monday or 1st of the month start date, but Rachel is right, if you can't jump into it right now -chances are you aren't there... yet! Million dollar question - How do you get there?
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