It's been a while - but that has become my M.O. - inconsistent. I recently had some frank conversations with myself and listened to a crap-ton (technical term) of podcasts in effort to get my mindset in order. I will spare you the gory details of the programs and attempts at quick fixes since my last post. I for one am trying to forget about them and move on to what's important - today and today's ahead.
Since then, there have been many moments when I thought this would make an 'excellent' comeback post. Spoiler alert-the comeback is not a winning found my way and got back to goal weight story... yet. Instead, it's a woman on a mission to find her sense of self-story (or post).
Since the pandemic/stay at home order I have found myself doing what I always do - pushing forward towards the bright light even if it meant white-knuckling my way through it. We are going into the 12th week of working remotely and by now by my expectations and calculations, I should have hit goal weight and or been well on my way to goal. What my expectations did not factor in was the emotional toll and rollercoaster the last 12 weeks would present.
Loss of loved ones due to Corona Virus, loss of #blacklives to more senseless discriminatory actions, loss of physical touch, and in-person connection of those outside our household, which admittedly I crave more than I believed prior to all of this. Loss of busy nights and evenings with work events, community commitments, and or late nites in the office. Loss of a commute to work and the dread of adverse impacts inclement weather will bring, loss of anxiety about working from home to accommodate contractors, doctor's appointments, or feeling unwell as a result of flare-up and needed a later start to allow my joints to get moving.
What have I gained? Oh, you mean other than weight? I gained a new perspective of myself - my strengths, weakness, and source of motivation. I will attempt to unpack each in its own post. I gained a newly tidy, organized pantry and cabinets, an appreciation for what self-care looks like for me. Also, I gained an appreciation for all the nuggets of self-care, education, and life lessons that have been right under my nose all this time but I was too 'busy' to notice or take advantage. The importance of the full package - good rest, nutrition, and physical activity - all the stuff that people have been saying forever. A refined sense of what it means to run my own race - in my own way, in my own time and terms.
My normal way to look back over the last 12 weeks - is all that I could, should, wanted to have accomplished or where I would be today if only I did insert the blank. Today I look back on the 12 weeks or 3 months as the time I needed to slow down, evaluate how I respond to change and offer myself grace and patience and love for stepping through it and accomplishing some bigger items on my to-do list that I had the wherewithal to step through and the gift of mental and physical space to act.
I am considering implementing Self Care Sunday - and perhaps journaling/blogging and considering my week's focus will be built into that program, but no commitment there. Part of SCS will be about leaning into what relaxes me, gives me energy, and positively feeds my spirit and sets me up for the week to feel refreshed, engaged, and mentally prepared.
What does your rest/refresh day look like?
Since then, there have been many moments when I thought this would make an 'excellent' comeback post. Spoiler alert-the comeback is not a winning found my way and got back to goal weight story... yet. Instead, it's a woman on a mission to find her sense of self-story (or post).
Since the pandemic/stay at home order I have found myself doing what I always do - pushing forward towards the bright light even if it meant white-knuckling my way through it. We are going into the 12th week of working remotely and by now by my expectations and calculations, I should have hit goal weight and or been well on my way to goal. What my expectations did not factor in was the emotional toll and rollercoaster the last 12 weeks would present.
Loss of loved ones due to Corona Virus, loss of #blacklives to more senseless discriminatory actions, loss of physical touch, and in-person connection of those outside our household, which admittedly I crave more than I believed prior to all of this. Loss of busy nights and evenings with work events, community commitments, and or late nites in the office. Loss of a commute to work and the dread of adverse impacts inclement weather will bring, loss of anxiety about working from home to accommodate contractors, doctor's appointments, or feeling unwell as a result of flare-up and needed a later start to allow my joints to get moving.
What have I gained? Oh, you mean other than weight? I gained a new perspective of myself - my strengths, weakness, and source of motivation. I will attempt to unpack each in its own post. I gained a newly tidy, organized pantry and cabinets, an appreciation for what self-care looks like for me. Also, I gained an appreciation for all the nuggets of self-care, education, and life lessons that have been right under my nose all this time but I was too 'busy' to notice or take advantage. The importance of the full package - good rest, nutrition, and physical activity - all the stuff that people have been saying forever. A refined sense of what it means to run my own race - in my own way, in my own time and terms.
My normal way to look back over the last 12 weeks - is all that I could, should, wanted to have accomplished or where I would be today if only I did insert the blank. Today I look back on the 12 weeks or 3 months as the time I needed to slow down, evaluate how I respond to change and offer myself grace and patience and love for stepping through it and accomplishing some bigger items on my to-do list that I had the wherewithal to step through and the gift of mental and physical space to act.
I am considering implementing Self Care Sunday - and perhaps journaling/blogging and considering my week's focus will be built into that program, but no commitment there. Part of SCS will be about leaning into what relaxes me, gives me energy, and positively feeds my spirit and sets me up for the week to feel refreshed, engaged, and mentally prepared.
What does your rest/refresh day look like?
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